Well – as you can see it has been a while since I posted anything here. Have you ever gone through a time when you felt as though you were all alone, even when you were surrounded by people? I’ve just been going through a few weeks of simple existence. Going day to day, in some kind of good flow, enjoying the ride, but feeling very alone.
It’s not like I’m in some unfamiliar town, or everyone I know has been avoiding me or something. On the contrary. It has been a very “normal” few weeks. I’ve been spending time with my kids, performing in the shows, going to church, praying alot. As a matter of fact, it has been a really good few weeks overall.
The one thing missing is my reading of the Word every day. I’ve actually been reading a great book by Bob Kauflin called “Worship Matters.” If you don’t know Bob, you might be familiar with the musical group Glad. He’s the lead singer. Turns out, he’s much more than that. He’s a great teacher and writer on the subject of worship. I encourage you to read it. I’ve been reading a chapter or so every day.
But – it’s not God’s word.
I’ve also been reading Worship Leader magazine. Great articles and resources for worship leaders.
But – it’s not God’s word.
Going to church? Hearing God’s word there? Men’s group on Tuesdays, too – great teaching there!
It’s not reading God’s word for myself.
Maybe that’s the source of me feeling so alone. As an off-the-chart extrovert, being alone is one of the most difficult things I deal with. So, I’ve filled my past few weeks with good things, good people, good times. Yet – something’s missing. I sort of feel like at any moment things could go flying apart again. I prayed this morning for help in understanding exactly what’s going on – why I feel like everything is about to let go.
So – as I sat here this morning feeling pretty guilty as I read all the daily emails from my friends who are keeping up with daily Bible reading. I opened an email I’ve had for a few days from a friend at work. I didn’t have any idea what it contained. As a matter of fact, I have been avoiding it because I get SO many emails from well-meaning friends and family members that just don’t do anything for me. But, I clicked it…
It’s a portion of a message given by Louie Giglio that contains an amazing revelation of a human cell called Laminin. You just have to watch the video because Louie does such a great job communicating.
It really spoke to me this morning. Here’s the scripture Louie cited from Colossians chapter one:
16 For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. 17 He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.
We were created by Him and for His good pleasure. It’s interesting how even though I have not been faithful in reading the Bible every day, He still reached me. After watching Louie’s short clip, I could almost feel His arms come around me and pull me back to his side. This is how He chose to answer my prayer today – to make me realize that He IS.
God has made His intentions very clear. He made us to enjoy us. He will not force us to love Him, but that’s His desire. He does not want us to feel alone. He has done SO MUCH to make evident how much He wants to have an intimate relationship with everyone of us. Today, I understand a little bit more how He has imprinted Himself in us all.
Well – I believe the group is starting back in Psalms 122 today. I should read that now…
grace & peace,